helpless

on the 4th day of CNY,
where the day me and my family were about to head back to kl from ipoh,
unluckily in the morning of the day,
suddenly my aunt wake me up,
damn it just 8am ok,
then she told me that my mom fell down from the stair,
i was like huh!!! wtf??
then me and my dad quickly drive to the place where she was,
when we reach there,
i saw my mom with super f#@$ing pain and holding her leg,
at first i thought it just dislocated on her joint,
but she said her leg broken,
but i believe on my first aider experience,
i still think that just a normal dislocation,
but once we reach the hospital,
after going through x-ray,
o fuck...
it's a close fracture,
at that time i was stun and speechless,
i can't believe that it will happen on my mom,
.....
later on,
my dad ask me to follow my aunt to go back kl,
and my family will stay at ipoh look after my mom,
at that i really felt helpless and blank on my head,
but anyway im back to kl...
and i miss my mom alot,
im worried about her so much,
.....
im alone now,
i sms that person,
indeed i really need a shoulder to lay on,
to support me,
but no reply,
hahaha...
it just my own thinking toward that person,
i thought i could at least have that person support,
but...never mind,
i guess i could handle it myself...
LESTER it time to GROW UP...
STOP BEING NAIVE...
yes i can do it...